Why I will no longer shop and keep my membership with Sephora.

1.) We have to buy a big amount of makeup every year to keep our sephora black (฿7,500) or Gold (฿37,500) status.

2.) The benefit of birthday gifts is relatively small, You get a tester set that they also gave for free with purchase and a Benefit brow service once a year, which you have to book in advance and if the queue is full you need to book on another day but not outside of your birthday month, I found this very difficult!

3.) The sale only happen a few times per year and you only get 10-20% discount of the product while they raised the price 10% higher than normal price during the sale. Yes, i saw that since I was eyeing on an eyeshadow palette, when the sale arrive I put the palette in my basket fast to find that the discounted product cost the same as regular price.

4.) Our most favorite products are always out of stock during the sale season. I found that since I jumped on the sale since the first hour and all of the wishlists were gone maybe in a few seconds. that could only happen when they only put 5 or maybe 10 on the website. So what's the point of being the member at the first place when you can't buy what you really want during the sale.

5.) From the 4th reason above I ended up buying shitty products that still available during the sale, mostly things that I would never wear, but just buy it because it was on a very big sale.

Project Panning/Makeup used up

Last year I started something like tying to used up one product before buying a new item. And I kind of still doing it these days. I also started to join a swap website, which is a fun way to get rid of product you don't enjoy and trade it to a new thing to try.
The end result, I ended up with more makeup than when I started...The reason is sometimes I trade my clothes for makeups. Sometimes I trade an expensive-ass blush for 2 eyeshadows. And the sephora membership is also not helping. I was drawn into every sales like a bee to honey.
Now that I look into my collection, I feel ashamed. Considering I don't even wear makeup everyday.
So I tell myself it time to get serious! I can't even wait until new year to start it. It is an EMERGENCY!

So I take every make up items I have at home, took a picture of each categories and count how many I have on each categories. I even make an instagam account dedicate to it (Cuz nowaday you gotta have instagram acoount for everything.👯) You can check my journey here. https://www.instagram.com/serenedclutter/

From where I start it make me realized I have more makeup than I thought. And some items in my collection I even forget about, some alredy expired. Gross...I know.
So I started declutter my makeup. Here is the end result of first round of declutter. sorry for bad quality picture I took with my i-phone. I just can't wait for professional camera.👅

I feel relieved alredy.

31

It seem like I only remember to post here during my birthday now. This year I post earlier than ever! I'm only 1 day away from 31. I can't help to repeat this sentence again, How am I 31 already?!, there I say it.

Now it's time to tell you about my 30. I had a big change in my life again. Nope...it's not marriage.👅
I change my job, I quit the government job. The main problem is I was not happy there, I know it's not my goal to work there day by day until 60 and retire. I think I'm more adventurous type. So I buy my contract and now move to my father's hometown ( 2 hrs from my parents house) to work in a private hospital. Fast and risky money. I'm during my third month here, and so far I'm ok with it. Who know what life gonna bring next.

As I'm getting older, I'm thinking more of what I want to do in life. Since I've spent most times in the box, I studied hard, I went to Med school, I become a doctor, I go to work almost everyday, I come home to sleep, and I wake up to work again. It's becoming very repetitive. I got bored. I feel like I don't know about outside world anymore. I don't have much joy in life. I want to jump out of this box, but then I'm also afraid to jump out of it. Because I came so far to be in this position, what if I jump and I keep falling and falling and never rise again.

The only person that make my days better is my boyfriend. He is very supportive and caring. He is the angel voice inside my head. He inspire me to be a better person. And he also trying to move here to be with me. I don't think I could ever ask for better. He also make me realize why it was never worked with anyone else. Because I never happy with myself...so I make others unhappy with me too. By the time I realized it I almost lost him too. And I'm hoping it's not too late.

30

yep! 30! That has been my age for 2 months now.
It was terrifying a few months before. And I was thinking a lot about being 30. I even googled " How does it like to be 30?" and was surprise that somebody really wrote an article about it.😂 I also found a really cool blog about being 30 which also name  http://www.being30yo.com/. It's really comforting to see how peoples are in their 30.

And when I think back...I always thought by 30, I'd have married, 2 kids, a big house, a sport car, a 10 millions bank account, 2 company in my name, 2 cats and a pedigree dog. 

Then I look at myself now. I've none of above.

Anyways now that it all passed, I'll tell you a bit about my 30th birthday. I brought my whole family to a beach villa in Krabi. and my boyfriend also came all his way from Canada for my birthday and he gave me a Cartier watch. (yep..surprise!! I got a boyfriend now and he's that nice.) So it was not that bad. 

Let me tell you about my 29th. It was a really good year. I fulfilled many of my goals and dreams. I went to Canada  for my elective month and that's where I met my boyfriend, we are perfectly happy together. Then I graduated from my Emergency Medicine board, it's a relief. After graduate I fulfilled another of my dream I traveled to Europe with my boyfriend. Now I'm working in a local hospital in my home town. living with my parents. They're very happy to have me back at home. Life is so simple now. But somehow I feel like there's much more waiting for me...like my journey won't end here.